I’ve been home for three days and I’m already missing SB. Ugh, I wish I was spending summer there. I feel like there’s nothing left for me to do at home anymore. Santa Barbara is my home now. I would have a job. I would be in a production. I would be having fun. I would be living by the beach. Of course I missed my friends back home, but it feels like everyone just moved on. I guess I did too. Welps, it’s only the beginning of the summer. Maybe things will turn around. Gonna make the most of it!
He is jealous for me
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden I am unaware of these
Afflictions eclipsed by glory
& I realize just how beautiful You are & how
Great Your affections are for me.
& oh, how He loves us so.
Oh, how He loves us.
How He loves us so.
God was SO present in my life this weekend. I legitimately realized how beautiful He is and how much He loves me. It stirs up so many emotions inside of me. The fact that I constantly fail in my life and mess things up and let Him down, but He never leaves my side. He encourages me. He is there for me. It makes me want to know Him so much more and do what He has commanded me to do. “Jesus came and told His disciples, ‘I have been given all authority heaven and on Earth. Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations. Baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age’” —Matthew 28:18-20. Those lyrics up there have been on my mind and on my heart all weekend long. I have encountered God’s love and what’s amazing is that He wants to encounter me even more. I just wanna share how great He is. The life he wants for me, for all of His children, is just unbelievably amazing. Oh, how He loves us.
Tomorrow when I get on the train to come home, I’m gonna play “Roots Before Branches” and be all super dramatic like Rachel. I’m gonna pretend that I thought I was going to my wedding, but actually my partner is sending me to New York to go fulfill my dreams and I’m gonna cry and be dramatic and it’s gonna be so great, I’m excited.
I call it the tree of life. It stands in the center of the bus circle here at UCSB and it represents the fact that people are always coming and going from our lives, just like the buses come and go from this circle. loljk it’s probably a normal tree.
Some secrets are meant to be kept. We all have that one thing about us that NO ONE knows. Not even our closest friends. Some things are just better left unsaid. What’s the harm? That’s how I feel, at least.
If I have to delete my social networking sites, it will go in this order
- AND AS A LAST RESORT, TUMBLR.
I’m just so over them. It’s cool to update people on what you’re doing and make memories. But sometimes, we end up trying to take a picture of every little thing. It’s not even necessary. I am really not a fan of tweeting what I’m doing. I mostly tweet song lyrics or to get something off my mind. It’s more of a venting thing. I try not to tweet when I’m hanging out with someone. Like “hanging out with so & so.” Okay, well how about you go hang out with them and give them your attention and stop tweeting every 5 minutes. Facebook is just more of a way for me to keep in touch with groups of people. I never really have full conversations with individual people on there. Instagram. I feel like people do things now a days just to take a picture of it instead of doing things to have fun and make memories. If that makes sense. I like Instagram, but sometimes it gets out of hand. My point is, social media networks are taking over my, actually, all of our lives. Like, what’s the first thing you do when you wake up (besides pee)? You most likely check your phone to check your facebook/twitter/instagram/etc. & I just really wanna limit myself, so I think I will. Starting with twitter. Once school starts, I’m gonna delete it from my phone. So, there’s step one. I will not let social media sites take over. If I want someone to know something, I will tell them personal. I’ll leave my venting to Tumblr, A Journal, or maybe even an actual person. K, I’m just venting here. Mostly because twitter has been annoying me and I’ve slowly been unfollowing people. Anyway, there’s that.
I saw this on the side of my facebook news feed
there’s no such thing as a “best loan”
THEY ALL SUCK.
I really have a difficult time dealing with stubborn people.
Can you just be more open to things?
How will your life be fulfilling if you won’t open your eyes & mind to new things and experiences? Don’t stay in the same box for your whole life. Live a little. Don’t be so stubborn.
OH MY GOSH why do swimmers and people in water polo always have nice bodies? Like do you just swim or what? Cause I can do that. Where are my abs? I demand a recount.
OMG so I tried the “voice control” feature on my ipod touch and I said “pentatonix” and then the voice was like “playing songs by pentatunicks” and I was like “wat” but it was okay because she started playing their cover of “Aha” and now life is good again.
I’m really content with life. I’ve been working out more, & I can see/feel change. Orientation for UCSB is next week…& I’M GOING THERE IN SEPTEMBER OMG. I’m connecting with an old friend. I’m connecting with a new friend. I’m having a good summer. Good things are happening. I still don’t have a job, but there has to be a reason for it. I guess it’s not the right time. But anyway, I’m content.