He is jealous for me

Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree

Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.

When all of a sudden I am unaware of these 

Afflictions eclipsed by glory

& I realize just how beautiful You are & how

Great Your affections are for me.

& oh, how He loves us so.

Oh, how He loves us.

How He loves us so.

God was SO present in my life this weekend. I legitimately realized how beautiful He is and how much He loves me. It stirs up so many emotions inside of me. The fact that I constantly fail in my life and mess things up and let Him down, but He never leaves my side. He encourages me. He is there for me. It makes me want to know Him so much more and do what He has commanded me to do. “Jesus came and told His disciples, ‘I have been given all authority heaven and on Earth. Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations. Baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age’” —Matthew 28:18-20. Those lyrics up there have been on my mind and on my heart all weekend long. I have encountered God’s love and what’s amazing is that He wants to encounter me even more. I just wanna share how great He is. The life he wants for me, for all of His children, is just unbelievably amazing. Oh, how He loves us.

I JUST BOUGHT TICKETS TO SEE A PRODUCTION OF NEXT TO NORMAL ON MAY 11!!!!! OMG YES YES. THANK YOU SWEET JESUS, I AM SO EXCITED.

Sometimes I just really want someone to notice that something is wrong.

I love when I tell people that I am a theatre major and they are really supportive and encouraging. But to those who give me condescending looks and comments…

Most of the time, I feel so ugly. Well, not really ugly, but not really handsome either. More like, tolerable. I feel like people always look past me. No one ever takes a second look at me. I’m just there. Ughhhh. Also, I feel like I have no friends. Whenever I try to make a connection with someone, they give up on me. Ugh life. It’s just one of those days. Nonetheless….I’m just gonna keep smiling and try to find the brighter side.

YES!

Ok, so for the past few months, I’ve been working and perfecting this monologue I found in a monologue book. I used it for my intro to acting class and a few auditions and I got really great feedback from my audiences so I was gonna use it for my theater BFA audition in May but I was like “ugh, this isn’t even from a real play. It’s just in a monologue book” so for the last few weeks I’ve been looking around for a new monologue to use but none of them really stuck out to me as much as this one. So today I decided to do some research and it turns out that IT’S FROM A REAL PLAY OMG YEAAAAAAAAAAH!!! And it fits all of the requirements for my audition and wow, it’s perfect. It’s a sign. So I’m gonna keep working on this one and use it for my upcoming auditions and by the time I get to my audition for the BFA program, it should be pretty amazing. AH. I’m so happy right now :)))

Dang, people are triflin’!! If you can’t go out cause you have homework, I understand that. BUT if you say you have work to do, you better be DOING that work, not playing video games and hanging out on social networking sites. Get your priorities in order. This is college.

IT’S GIRL SCOUT COOKIE SEASON! WHERE ARE THE LITTLE GIRL SCOUTS SELLING COOKIES?! COLLEGE STUDENTS EAT THEM TOO. (we eat the cookies, not the girl scouts)

I just really loved the “Naked” episode of Glee. All the feels. Rachel stopping herself from doing the topless scene. Sam feeling like he was a failure. Marley and Jake, omg aww. Quinn and Santana back <3<3<3 Brittany and Stanford and Sons and University of California at Charles Barkley’s house. Blaine’s butt that was baked to perfection. and more more more more morrrreeeee. It felt like I was watching the good old season 1 of Glee. The music was amazing. The story line was good. and just, ugh. Thank you, Glee. I needed this.

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One of the worst things about college is having to buy/rent EXPENSIVE textbooks. IT’S RIDICULOUS. & professors need to stop changing books every quarter so I can sell back my books. I’m so broke right now. Ugh, I’m real mad.